Since I was young I have always been very aware that I am pretty weak when it comes to anything physical. It was even more evident when I tried out for volleyball in my freshman year. I was there all week doing my best. But I would get so out of breath, my legs would feel super heavy and I just wasn’t as light on my toes as most of the other girls. I heard the coaches praise them and I heard nothing about me. Then one day, one of the coaches came up to me and said, “You’re good at volleyball, but if you aren’t going to try harder than you have been don’t come back tomorrow.” I was crushed. I saw how the other girls would run laps around me. This solidified in my mind (true or not) that not only was I weak I was weaker than everyone else. I didn’t go back the next day. Instead I signed up for marching band and never did anything terribly physical ever again. That is, until last week! 5 kids and 17 years later.
In one week I started Crossfit and committed to two 1/2 marathons! I don’t run, never seem to have time to work out and have 5 kids. I don’t know why I accepted any of these challenges. Not to mention all the writing and photography I am doing for this blog and other projects. Every day I try to understand what just happened to my life?! And I wonder, “How am I going to accomplish all of this?” But there is something inside of me that is urging me on. Something telling me that I need to do this.
For me this isn’t about being the strongest or the fastest. It is about getting over those false beliefs that I let sink deep into my soul. It is about being able to reach my goals without giving up, without listening to that nagging voice in my head that is telling me I can’t do it.
I never wanted to quit volleyball, but I did. And since that day I have vowed to never quit anything ever again, especially now. I know the strength lies within me. I can feel it. Now is time to get fit! Time to rebuild and release that inner strength that will help me become strong physically. As a mother and as an individual I know I need to do this. I have experienced amazing things already and can’t wait to write about it.
No more excuses. It is time to enjoy life in a new way! I am going to start tracking my progress as of now.
I would love to hear your stories and hear of your progress as well! I know it will encourage me to keep going no matter how hard it gets.
Weak no more!